Why do we blog? I am asking myself because I have lost my blogging mojo. Yep, it’s lost and I keep searching and am having a lot of trouble finding it lately. Do you know where it could be? I have lots of theories, maybe if I break it down and share some of my theories I may just find my mojo again. I will start with a few sad events that I take in stride and don’t dwell on sad things, but maybe the deep roots of a few of them have affected my thought process and given me pause. Yes, one of the things that has really affected my thinking is a lifelong friend who hurt my feelings badly last year (and in turn I hurt her feelings too, which makes me sad) and it doesn’t matter how and why, and we’ve made up and we are on good footing again, but it made me wonder what it is that caused the issues that brought us to this place where we didn’t understand each other.

Hmm, was it me? we will never know and this is a good horse friend who I rode with every day. I’m so happy we are all good and we don’t board at the same stables anymore, but am happy we are still best of friends. ❤ However, this has caused me much reflection and in this reflection has caused me to wonder what am I doing and how can I be authentic and fun, and happy to share all the things that enrich my life. Why do we blog? for me to share.

Life is full of challenges, good and bad. Lots of things are challenging right? Friendships, loved ones can be confusing as I have had my fair share of misunderstandings with my family too. Life decisions can be challenging, as I have shared that I wanted to move to Arizona which did not pan out and I am actually thankful we did not move there. Owning animals can be challenging, I lost a horse last year which was really sad, and I feel enriched and thankful that my sweet Murphy is now in my life along with my other horse Miss Chloe. They both help keep me centered and truly are my therapy. Why do I blog? Definitely for Therapy.

As I share my thoughts today I am thinking about how I started my blogging journey which was to improve my writing skills. I always wanted to write and I have journaled (a lot) and thought wouldn’t it be great to write a novel. Wait, novel writing? That’s hard work, and I am no english major so there is that as well. I find the freeform writing here is my cup of tea. I don’t need to remember grammar stuff, and if I make a run on sentence who cares? RIGHT? Haha, at least all those who follow and read my posts are all very kind and I so appreciate my audience, more than you all realize.

Part of my missing mojo also revolves around this wonderful blogging community because I am also finding it difficult keeping up reading all the wonderful blog posts out there and then I feel guilty I am not reading them all and commenting. It is a growing emotion for me, feeling guilty because I am not there responding. My mojo is wrapped up in this predicament. Why do we blog? To strengthen our writing skills.

I know, I know, just do what you can. I tell myself that everyone has a life and we all are busy (some probably more busy than others) and that no one is counting or looking to see who reads what or who comments when…. And then I see all these blog posts and think I need to catch up! It can be stifling. Shake it off Diana. Your mojo is here somewhere, and I think I just need to write. There is one last thing in my head that I think grabbed my mojo and I was so worried this would happen, and then it did.

I joined a Facebook group which is something I have paid for, a small price each month as it is a private group that is specifically for a horsey podcast I listen to almost every day. I didn’t want to join this podcast auditors group because I was worried that it would be exactly what I thought it would be and that is a time eater. Yep, I find myself spending lots of my spare time reading all the posts in this horsey podcast private group! I know myself too well, and I joined because I really wanted to adopt my thoroughbred Murphy and the trainer who helped me adopt him is on the podcast. (By paying I am supporting this wonderful podcast and it is worth the $3 a month to me.) It’s all coming full circle. As my time has been eaten away by my FB readings, I have dropped a lot of my blog posts readings on WP. Criminey!! I feel like I am at a point where I need to make a choice. OR I need to figure out some moderation. Why do I blog? For friends and family!

Why do we blog? The posts we all write and share have meaning to all of us that I could not even come close to describing. We all have a need to be here and I honor each and every one of you as I truly believe my life has been enriched by all that I have met through your posts. My updates that I mention in my title is really just updates on where my head is at, at this time in my life. I need to free myself from guilt, and free myself from any passed transgressions with friends and family and I think my mojo will return. My life and horse stories is important to me and I have shared so much of my life here that I don’t want to throw in the towel. I don’t think I need to start over either, but I do feel like I need to find a new way forward that feels fresh and forward thinking. Looking to the future and appreciating the past. I hope you’ll enjoy my shares. Mojo, where are you? I know you are there somewhere!

I updated my blog site with this photo that was taken by a friend this last July. It’s nice to update things every once in awhile. It’s a start to finding my mojo, I feel like its right at my fingertips now. Thank you for your support and for reading and following my blog. ❤ I blog for me and for you, Why do you blog?

Searching Lovingly,

~Diana ❤