I have been thinking a lot about my parents. I do not talk about them often and to be completely honest I do not think about them like you would normally think about your parents because it can be painful to think about, I miss them so. I am being brutally honest as I think it is time to chat about them, to remember all the good times and remember how much I LOVE them as they made me who I am today. I often see me doing or saying something either one of them would say. I know I have sayings that I learned from them that my children wonder where did that come from? But we are what we grew up with, and I want to remember the good times! So this is to my parents and everyone’s parents in the here and now or up in heaven as it were. I am hoping they are looking down and smiling! ❤
This year in particular has made me realize I should and could do more to celebrate my parents. I think through this blog and reading other blogs has made me want to put my emotions and thoughts on paper ~ or type on my computer how wonderful my parents were, such truly special people, they taught me so much. I have always thought that having a big heart is so important and I got that from them. Such heartfelt human beings that would give their shirts off their back to those in need. I am humbled by my parents and all they accomplished. I could write a novel about their life, hmm…. For now I will just write this blog. 😀
There is so much I can write about my Mom and Dad. But as my thoughts wander the reason I decided to write about them now is because on June 25th my Mom would have turned 91, my Dad would have been 87 this year. They have been gone 16 years now and of course I think about them every Mother’s day and Father’s day. My Dad’s birthday was in March so through the Spring they are always in my mind. My Mom loved to garden and I can remember her talking about one day wanting a big garden. She would have loved to have had a green house to grow many things, she never got the green house she wanted but she did have a green thumb. Awe, memories are so wonderful. I remember the artichokes in our backyard and my favorite, gardenia! I have been wanting to plant gardenia to grow in my garden, I must do that this year! ❤
My Dad bless his heart was always by my Moms side. He worked up to the very end to help make ends meet but the two of them were inseparable, the way it should be I think. He was a Psychiatrist and an accomplished pianist. I am not a doctor but work in the medical field and I am an accomplished pianist as well but not as good as my Dad. He was so inspirational, we were so very close and I think I was one if not the one, his favorite. Thinking about him now brings tears to my eyes, awe Dad….. I just miss them so…. (See how hard this is to write and think about them? Ugh, but it’s all good. I want to honor them with this post. They deserve to be remembered with ALL MY HEART! And hopefully I will write more about them, it’s my plan.)
I had a vision of what I was going to write and now that I am writing it has morphed into something a little different but I am loving this post. I am loving feeling the LOVE of my parents, to think about them in a positive way and not the sad, I miss you so much way. I know that last sentence was rather goofy, but I think you get the jest of what I am trying to say. To shine a light on my overpowering emotions, here’s a little back story.
When I was growing up I would freak out whenever my parents went on a trip. It didn’t matter if they were going to be gone the weekend or a week or two. I, as a child thought I would never see them again. I thought the plane would crash or something terrible would happen to them. In other words, I was dreadfully attached to my parents missing them more than a normal person should. Then once I met my husband and we started having children I ended up asking my parents if they could be my babysitter as I needed help working full-time. They landed on hard times and needed a place to live (a very long story) and so they lived with me and my family for almost 20 years. SO That is why I am so emotional. This is so cathartic and thank you for reading my story about my parents. I am feeling warm fuzzy feelings with every word I type.
I am hoping to share more in the future and to celebrate my parents and remember them. I hope you all have the best parents too. I know this isn’t true for all and pray for all who don’t have that special relationship. My husband is taking care of his Mom who will turn 90 this October. She has some dementia, but is still living by herself. He is an amazing man taking such good care of her, he is her only child. We have had such different lives growing up him and I, but that is for another blog post. Thank you for celebrating with me. I wish you could have met my parents, they were amazing people!!
With all my Love, to you Mom and Dad!